dying to know the difference

we dont have scales in my house so i'm dying to know if i've actually achieved anything.

the next time i'm able to weigh myself will be the next time i'm at my dads, but who knows when that will be?

today i've been pretty good, i'm not following the abc diet anymore, i'm just generally eating a lot less

today i had breakfast at 7am - a small bowl of special k with skim milk

and the only other food i've had since then is about five cashew nuts.

i've had tonnes of water/diet coke though.

i'm just going to see if i can last the  night.

i went to a friends house afterschool and on the way there she said that we should stop off to get food - i resisted, even with her eating. it made me feel incredibly happy.

being home alone was the hardest part, opening the fridge for the diet coke brought loads of yummy food to my attention. mmm chocolate cake. i wanted to smell it, to taste it, but i shut the fridge and told my self i had to eat something small. i was going to have ten cashew nuts - but i put half back. that has got to count for something, right?

well, right now i'm off to stick my ipod into my ears and listen to some sweet dept of eagles as i walk through the cold day-turning-to nightness.

(: x x